I thought about what I was feeling when I saw you, did it feel the same like it was in the past? The past me thought about it and it was definitely love, the present me feels like maybe it was just plain infatuation. A period of cycle in a teenager's world. Maybe what I felt wasn't love? Those days when glanced sideways just to get a glimpse at you and pretend I wasn't. Mentally it was torturing me as I couldn't shake away the feeling of want no matter how much I told my heart to stop. I lied repeatedly to myself I didn't like you, what I was feeling was just...plain craziness. Really...Unrequited Love Sucks...

The feelings inside me are starting to slowly fade away, maybe it's because you were being such an egoistic creep that I'm starting to turn away. Sometimes your presence still captures me, like a fugitive recaptured again only to run away and find refuge in a remote place away from any living contact. I'm rejecting the feeling strongly, that's because I want to break away. Break away forever from this heart-wrenching cycle, that has bounded chains all over my heart.

I realise now that I'm starting to regain my sense of logic again, time really heals most heart-aches. I thought that if I waited I might get rid of the unwanted feelings. I thought that if I didn't see you I might stop the want. So don't tempt me to look back again. You're really Cruel, do you think I'm your toy? I'm never going to look back again like you want me to.


This is Goodbye, forever
31/5/2011