1. Lack of interest or concern, especially regarding matters of general importance or appeal; indifference.

2. Lack of emotion or feeling; impassiveness.

As much as I hate to say or remember regretful events, it's one thing that I can never turn back the clock. Life is never a rehearsal. Things change because of what you do or say, things change because of what your actions created the outcome to be like or don't. I regretted being so conveniently indifferent to the surroundings around me and the people around who cared about me. Sometimes I do or say things without much thought or care because they don't matter to me. I don't feel that sense of anxiety, nervousness when I'm going for exams. I don't feel the sense of excitement and happiness when I see my special someone. I don't feel the sense of deep solemn and mourning when tragedy has struck.

In all I can't actually say that I 'regret' doing something it's more like I don't want to turn into an emotionless creature on earth that walks through earth without any purpose or direction in life. If you have the fcked up attitude of thinking everything is a waste of time what's the fcking point of even living? Why am I even living? Practically everything goes back to my attitude, the outlook on life, personal opinion and response etc. How did I even get so sucked up into my own warped black hole? The Earth is round, not square you moron!! I have an inflexible thinking, I'm insensitive, selfish and blantly straight-foward. This combination is seriously disastrous D: , and has landed me in the pits many times. I'm REally Sorry, for whatever I said without much consideration sometimes. If possible I wish I wouldn't say so many hurting words in future but I think history is gonna repeat itself. This is to You, you, YoU and YOu.

To my loved ones, thanks for being so patient and lovely to as to oversee and bao rong all my sores points.
You people rock.
Love Me, xoxo